“What I had to say to you, moreover, would not take long, to wit: Practice any art, music, singing, dancing, acting, drawing, painting, sculpting, poetry, fiction, essays, reportage, no matter how well or badly, not to get money and fame, but to experience BECOMING, to find out what’s inside you, to MAKE YOUR SOUL GROW.”—
I see a lot of artists nowadays that create art just to get recognition. Rather than creating because it’s part of their soul; they do it to escape from normality and mediocrity. Like if you do something artistic, all of a sudden, you’re not just Jim, the guy who works night-shifts at the grocery…
“When I say, “I love you,” it’s not because I want you or because I can’t have you. It has nothing to do with me. I love what you are, what you do, how you try. I’ve seen your kindness and your strength. I’ve seen the best and the worst of you. And I understand with perfect clarity exactly what you are. You’re a hell of a person.”—Joss Whedon (via malignantworkaholic)
I want to thank you for always being there for me in my times of need and for continuing to be there for me through everything. You were there in the beginning when I wasn’t me yet, and you’re still here after I’ve learned a lot in this new world. I really have missed you in my life, and I sincerely wish you the best. We’ll only be friends, but friends we will always remain.
A little backstory:chagum, the crown prince of the empire, is suddenly found to be the guardian of a water spirit that brings drought. His mother asks Balsa to act as a bodyguard in order to protect Chagum from the Emperor’s assassins. Later, it is discovered that the water spirit does not bring drought but, in fact, ends the drought that happens once every hundred years.
The crown prince, Chagum, runs away after he finds out that he, as the guardian of the spirit that brings rain, will have to die in order for the spirit inside of him to hatch. Naturally, he is scared and doesn’t want this. He runs away, and the girl acts as his guide since she feels guilty for being the one who told the history of what happened to the previous guardian of the spirit (gets eaten by a monster).
Then appears Balsa, prepared to bring him back to the village. Her body language is adamant, refusing to back down. Here Chagum has an opportunity to question Balsa, and he does so. He asks why she did not tell him anything before. His voice is accusing, and in some ways, even angry with the way he is treated. Balsa does not deny anything but merely answers with the truth. Chagum does not believe that Balsa cares about him at all and thinks that she is more concerned with the spirit inside of him. Chagum tells Balsa that she can stop worrying about him and that he is going back to court. He tells her “You are not my mother, so you cannot understand how I feel,”
At this point, the atmosphere of the scene changes. In the minutes prior, the environment was static. However, now a wind blows. Balsa’s figure, unmoving before, is now shown with her hair blowing in the wind. Clearly, Chagum’s words have affected some part of her. At this point, Balsa accepts that Chagum cannot be convinced with words and tells him that if he is prepared to follow through with his words, he has to stab her with the spear first.
This is a major development. Throughout the whole series, Balsa has been the one protecting Chagum. Now he has to toss aside all that she has done for him and defeat her if he wants to go to court. Chagum’s face instantly realizes this as well. He gasps, as if unsure of what to do. In addition, the theme “Wakare no Toki” comes on, fitting the occasion perfectly. He stares at the spear in disbelief until Balsa tells him that she won’t budge. Chagum glaces repeatedly between Balsa and spear, hoping that she will budge and that he won’t have to make such a decision. Finally though, he does pick up the spear.
The spear looks heavy on him, and he clearly shows that he doesn’t have the strength to use it right. He points the spear at Balsa, and she urges him to go on. Her voice has risen in volume, and the calmness she showed initially is replaced by something more in line with anger. The camera then shifts to Chagum’s perspective and instantly its noticeable that the spear is shaking heavily. He is scared and unsure and doesn’t want to go through with it. Chagum then says that Balsa is strong, but she cannot hope to defeat the monster. It’s as if Chagum is trying to psych himself up to go through with the event more than anything. He charges at Balsa, screaming and drowning out everything else, and then the girls gasps as the camera moves away.
Here, the climax occurs. Chagum realizes that he missed. Balsa grabs the spear in a decisive motion and brings her right hand up. In the next instant, she slaps him and sends him flying to the ground. She bangs her spear on the ground. “How dare you raise a weapon against your mother?” she angrily screams. In such a strong voice, you can feel the chill rush through your body. It is the voice of a mother giving the most heart-wrenching words ever. Chagum touches his cheek, remembering instantly the pain that he just felt from his protector, and cowers in fear. He positions himself such that he is smaller, crying all the meanwhile. He is turned away from Balsa, showing the split between them. Balsa tells him that she won’t let him die, her voice on the border of tears. She embraces him from behind and turns him to face her. His body is limp and his head lies on the side, as if he doesn’t have the strength to fight any of this anymore. His head is placed on her thighs and he cries “Why me…” He is only twelve.
I was reminded of this one scene in samurai champloo after something happened to a friend of mine. Jin, Fuu, and Mugen traveled together for a long ass time, and then they found a blind lady. Then they traveled with her for a short time skip. They got to know each other. And at one point, she asked Fuu, “when it comes time to part ways, can i have one of them with me? And of course this pains Fuu, bringing her to tears later. Then when it did come time to part ways Fuu chose Jin to go along with the blind lady because she said that Jin was more reliable and wouldn’t take advantage of her. And after they parted ways, Fuu started crying and said, “I picked Jin because I thought he would say no”
it’s been almost a year since I wrote this but for some reason or another I kept putting this off.
FUCK YOU CHEMISTRY. JUST….UGH. So baffling. It doesn’t make sense anymore. I began off the quarter super scared of inorganic and feeling good about organic. And yet here I am. 36/100 for organic and 96/100 for inorganic. wtf is this shit.
1. 水素（すいそ／suiso）hydrogen H 2. ヘリウム（heriumu）helium He 3. リチウム（richiumu）lithium Li 4. ベリリウム（beririumu）beryllium Be 5. 硼素（ぼうそ／bouso）boron B 6. 炭素（たんそ／tanso）carbon C 7. 窒素（ちっそ／chisso）nitrogen N 8. 酸素（さんそ／sanso）oxygen O 9….
I had a dream about you. I woke up crying. It was like the funeral procession for you again, and the whole family came together. I miss you. I miss having all of them here together. I’m not the same carefree kid I was back then. And I don’t have you here anymore, but I still have many memories of you. Thank you and good bye.
Dear friend, you are very important to me. You make me smile often, and I enjoy seeing you laugh. It saddens me then to see you with such a downcasted face. How ironic that even though you’re so tall, you feel so small. Yet you continue to smile in place of tears, and though you fear what the future brings, you continue on bravely.